she blew em all away in the shit-storm sweepstakes

it is tough to change things that have been a certain way for a long amount of time. to change ones self is one of the most incredibly challenging things that one can undertake. to be able to look inwards with objectivity is not something a lot of people can do or care to do. its a frightening thing, introspection.

recognizing that a change is required is almost as tough as the changing process. it requires identifying all those negative things about yourself and not simply pointing them out but actively pursuing their eradication. all the dirty little secrets that we hate to speak of and admit to that make us the nasty person that we are.

so when in an effort to change ourselves for the better, we must confront all those things that make us so bad. it is in this confrontation that is the most cathartic. to be able to admit to yourself all of your failings, you gain a sort of purity of self that only arrives through fire of self-realization. it is much easier to revamp yourself into something better once you have gone through the pain of cleaning out your brain.

there are those people out there who say that change is impossible and that a person will always be who they are. its not true. to become something else requires the willingness to suffer through your mistakes and the motivation to not make them again. it is a constant effort to maintain the new things. it will require a lot of work to break the habits that have been with you your whole life. it is more than doable so long as your will power is strong enough to carry you.

for in the end, to become something else, will power is all it takes. will power to deny temptation. will power to perpetuate your motivation to excel. will power to mold oneself into an idealized version of yourself and to ignore all the things that would normally drag you down. strength of mind. once you have that, everything else falls into place over time.