preservation through destruction

ah, how true is that.  the only way to maintain perfection is through memories.  its so true.  the past becoming the future is impossible.  one can never relive the days that were so amazing in our histories.  we look back and see all the glory days of youth and splendor with all those happy thoughts that helped us grow up to be the well adjusted individuals we are today.  

all the attempts that i have made to relive the past or to recreate the instances which were so awesome always end up in failure and disappointment.  happy times and the good ol' days are long gone and cannot be relived.  if you are unlucky like me, you are lucky to remember them.  

heard something funny, "Anger is just fear of loss or pain".  how true can that be?  i dont know that i can remember what happened when i was angry last.  im sure it was recent, but being able to analyze how i was feeling at the time.  i have to explore this a bit in the future, because now i am curious and i would like to test this theory out.  it has to be pure anger though, nothing manufactured or forced.  i just have to make sure to remember that i want to explore this the next time that it happens.

so little time on this planet.  such short lives that are lived too fast.  too few dreams realized and too much time wasted on trying to acquire such unnecessary things.  ive wasted and failed for too long.  i need to move on and grow smarter as i grow older.  happiness will never be found in the past, for the past holds only fleeting memories and effigies of ghosts that no longer care to haunt for they have moved on as we all should, no matter how broken it keeps us.