The way that we live

new day resolution from yesterday went very well today. made the double batch of chili that i vowed to make. new recipe and new ideas all around about how to cook one of my favorite foods. i tried both versions and liked both. i think the shiner bock and jim beam version was better. just my opinion but i have further reviews coming. one of the best things about cooking is having enough to share with your friends. my neighbor tried the tequila and belgoo version for dinner and just gave me a great compliment on my back porch while i was smoking my before bed cigarette.

i think i will keep the experiment going for as long as i can afford it. making a new dish every week. i havent decided on next weeks dish. i will need to keep my eyes open for some fine inspiration that motivates my culinary tributes to tasty goodness. so far things have turned out well. i will have to prepare myself for some flops though. no one gets a winner every time.

this is a new thing for me too; taking advantage of my wireless connection and blogging from my laptop in my bed. its quite liberating actually. why didnt i think of this before?

got a new tattoo last week and it is in the very nasty and scabby healing phase. it hurt like fuck, but i know it will be worth it in the end. something about the color scheme; black, purple and powder blue. i have it all greased up with lotion right now and cant appreciate it for its beauty yet. its just an eyesore right now. soon though, and ever after i will see it for the masterpiece that it is and that will make the pain and temporary ugliness worthwhile.

further delving into the land of popular television today, i completed the L Word season 4 and knocked out half of season 5 while i was cooking, eating, relaxing and cleaning. i really do love the show and the social experiment that it is displaying. the gay subculture doesnt get enough good press at all. not being gay but having be around gays for most of my life i have come to feel for the people who have to live different lives than the mainstream goers of society. some hide their preferences and others embrace their differences while yet others deny their natural proclivities and choose to love unhappily as the socially accepted norms. the denial ones are the ones i feel sorry for. i have never been in their position and therefore cannot judge or empathize. all i can hope is that someday they find the reason to be what they are and can embrace life for all that it is.

our life spans are so brief in the grand scheme of things. they should not be about living in fear, repression or doubt. life is something to be enjoyed and embraced for all it is worth. we should all learn to become the person that can go to the grave tomorrow harboring no regrets about how we have lived.

love yourself and live your life. it is yours to further or fuck up as you see fit. this is my lesson for the day. i am learning to do what i do and live a happy and fulfilling existence. i can only hope the same for the rest of you.