i dont know what hurts worse, being alone, or being with you

such a strange thing, human emotions. so odd how intense and powerful they are. how they are such an all encompassing driving force behind most of our actions. the wickedness of letting something so vile and uncompromising rule our lives is disgusting and for lack of a better term, unfair.

that word is one of the first things we learn as children, unfair. everything seems so horribly unfair as a child. and so it seems everything in the future in our adult lives shares the same description. our day to day lives become unfulfilling and seems too arduous to be considered life. we see movie stars and musicians with fortunes galore and long so much to share their notoriety that we becomes voyeurs and arm chair stalkers in a state of resentment and envy so deep that the only explanation we have is how unfair everything is.

the ideals of perfection we attempt to emulate only further the psychosis of our self induced state of inadequacy. the harder we push ourself toward unattainable goals the closer we come to losing all sense of individualized achievement.

i could go on and on about the lack of fairness in the world but i feel confident that at least 90% of the population would feel the same way. there is no need to beat a horse like that. suffice it to say that life is not fair now, nor will it ever be. we just have to learn to be happy with ourselves and all our inadequacies.